Singing on stage in front of a crowd can’t be easy, even for people who sell out stadiums. Five shows into her Solar Power tour, Lorde opened up in a Tuesday (April 12) email to her newsletter subscribers about how her performance anxiety struggles have been since her return to touring.
“I don’t think I realized, back when we booked these more intimate shows, just HOW psycho the feeling in the room would be,” she wrote. “And my stage fright is barely a factor now — I just feel calm, keen to hang with you for an hour and a half. That feels different now, more manageable, more on my terms.”
The 25-year-old singer-songwriter third revealed, “I used to come offstage and feel like I had stepped from one planet onto another, the adrenaline spike being so massive, the fear response I’d had to counteract so immense,” she continued. “I’d have to chew a gummy or drink a tequila just to come down a little bit.”
The New Zealand native says she’s now adopted a new post-performance ritual of writing down details about people she sees in the audience, like “someone in a sun costume, someone in old merch, someone with beautiful eye makeup, someone who’s hype the entire time, someone who barely sings a word but is completely focused.”